What came next was in flashes. Brief glimpses through the abyss of a world, that for whatever reason, seemed unwilling to let me bleed out and die.
First came the carpet, a thick sheet of Tibetan tapestry was swept over, and subsequently tucked beneath my soon-to-be-corpse, my pupils at full dilation, corneas going glossy as the intense floral patterns pressed tight into my face, and I was rolled up like a cigar. Looking back, it was all a nonsensical haze, but in hindsight it’s plainly obvious that Susan had chosen this particular mode of transporting me as the result of my overall infamy. I’d become such a hated individual in that city, it was actually less of a risk to get caught transporting a stiff than it was to be seen wheeling around town with a living Johnny Minacelli. Considering the homicide rates at that time – which I’d taken great pride in inflating – chances are the cops wouldn’t even bother to stop you, as they just simply wouldn’t have had the man-power to make an arrest, and there would be no sense in disrupting any of the already active investigations into the piles upon piles of unrelated bodies for what, in the end would amount to little more than just another drop in the bucket.
From there it was a bumpy ride in a cold, damp trunk. The twisted weave of the carpet wrapped around me became animated by my near-death delusions, lifting off the fabric like a hundred little snakes, breathing in the blood I lost, slipping and sliding across my face, and hissing down deep into my gaping mouth a lengthy list of all those I’d love to hurt, but never had the chance to in my short life. I could hear a pair of voices through the slowing sound of my heart beat droning like an earthquake in my ear. Susan and Valarie, they’d drug me out of there, they’d taken charge, and I didn’t know how to accept it. As I laid there, fully aware of my own mortality, feeling like a goldfish in a pierced plastic bag, watching my chances of survival flow away in a constant stream, it was jealousy I felt, not gratitude. No one ever had an answer were I hadn’t, and I be damned if I was going to let the pawns I’d been playing usurp my role of king, and steer my criminal legacy into the jagged rocks. I’d rather be dead than out of control, so I tensed the muscles around my neck, and did my best to force the blood out that much faster, succeeding only in managing to make myself pass back out.
Regaining consciousness midway through some sort of surgery is never a pleasant experience, much less so when the procedure in question is being performed by a grey-skinned woman whose hands never seem to touch the scalpel, and whose eyebrows float up weightless in numerous wavy three foot tendrils from her face like the arms of an inverted jellyfish. She knew my eyes had opened before even I did, but she appeared in no rush to put me back out. Wiping the cold sweat of pure terror from my forehead, she bent down, and stared holes straight through the back of my head. Her lips never moved, but the words came regardless, comforting, alarmingly comforting. The last time I was awake, I’d been trying to kill myself, and that was only after years spent killing everyone else. As far as I had known, little Johnny Minacelli was far beyond his teddy bear years; the kid within had choked to death on the river of black bile that had overtaken my heart the night I wasted my father and his cronies. Yet somehow – with eyes so cold they’d make yours dry out if you stared back too long, and with my chest split open, and the skin pinned back with forceps, my innards in the open air, my mechanics thumping, and pulsing in tune with the rhythms of my overloaded mind – somehow, she’d broken through.
“Johnny,” she said, with words projected directly into my mind from her’s, “Johnny Minacelli”.
I tried to force out a response, but my tongue hung limp from my lips, and the shock of seeing my own intestines had sent my brain into a state of utter paralysis; basic motor function, and the alphabet among the many deep rooted long term memories that had been wiped out and replaced with flashes of my own personal gore at that very moment. Nothing but air, and just the smallest amount of blood came tumbling from my lips, and I hoped like hell it was enough to get her to throw me a few more of those soothing words.
“Does it hurt?” she said, and I would have laughed, but it did, and most of my energy was already being spent on rapidly wishing I would die.
“Are you afraid?” the words kept coming without any movement from her face, but with a stillness like a black hole that deformed all the light and air around her body.
“You are right to be fearful,” she said, “you are nothing but a man, and you are so very weak, so much more so than your kind already inherently is”.
She pulled back from my face very slowly, floating so gracefully across the room that it seemed as if her feet weren’t really even making impact with the tiles below her. If she was a ghost, she deserved a medal for how well she played the part; my hair stood up so straight as she moved, by the time she made it to the other side of the room, most of my stubble had actually yanked itself from the root in fright, and now lay piled up around my pillow in the shadow of a clean-shaven jaw.
“You may be wondering who I am, but you’d already be mistaken,” she continued, her wax face frozen stoic and stern, “I am not a ‘who‘, a ’she’, an ‘it’, nor a ’they’. I am something else altogether, and I am bigger, so very much bigger than any of you”.
She locked in place, arms, and legs stiff, and straight, and her eyebrows began going to work on the room. Acting like the tentacles of an octopus, they extended from her face, and began punching holes in a variety of computer monitors, intercom speakers, electronic door locks, and the machinery of the gurney I was presently strapped to, split wide like a martyr of some lost Medieval cause, watching helplessly as her hair did things in that room I’d never seen a human being do with its hands. The tentacles ripped wiring loose from its solder, stripped its plastic coating, and reworked it into a peculiar copper mesh. Circuit boards, LEDS, RAM, and cooling fans all came next, joined the mesh, and the whole thing started to whirr, and glow a dim blue around the edges.
“I have come here not to save you. This is very important for you to understand,” she said, floating back over to my bedside, the strange metal mess clutched tight in her eyebrows, “you are only worth the hate that you carry inside you. All I need is that hole where your soul should sit, where the thirst for violence rages like a thousand year storm”.
I screamed so hard when she started to thread the wire mesh through my flesh that I was actually able to see my lungs deflating through the gaping incision in my chest, and ballooning back up suddenly as I gasped with every new pass of the metal through my skin. I lost control of my body, and began seizing violently as she pressed on through the ungodly binding of man and machine, and watched my heart spasm, seemingly trying to wrench itself free from my arteries, and haul ass for a chest in less immediate distress.
“Your kind,” she continued, a fine misting of my blood sprinkling against her cement cheeks, “You would rape this planet with your ignorance, damn it to a future of toxic inhabitability”.
The pain tore through my body like a car battery was hooked to each and every single one of my nerve endings, and joined up at the other end with a burning freight truck. As a flood poured from my eyes, I saw Susan and Valarie enter the room, accompanied by yet another young doctor whose face carried a grin almost as wide as the oner I couldn’t understand why I was wearing. This thing hated me, she wanted to hurt me, and I too wanted to bring her great pain, yet I was so very happy at that moment. As my body was bastardized, sewn back together with wires like a science fiction Frankenstein; as she berated me, crushed my ego, spoke so far down to me her voice seemed to echo across the distance between her mind and my ears; as she presumed herself my master – a position high above me I’d kept open by way of baseball bats and bullets over the years – I fell warm and welcome into the role of her sheep.
“You all should have died,” she continued, fastening the last bit of the implant into my wound, “From the cold, the plagues, the wars. You should be dead and gone, but you thrive, and you destroy more now than ever before”.
I felt a place very deep down inside my self, behind all the muscle and blood, and organs, and cells, and all the other churchy magic my forefathers had tried to clog into my person, make a sort of popping noise, and a wash of warming electricity began to surge throughout my body. I beeped a bit like a television cyborg, and all at once all the pain and misery came crashing to a halt, and the room erupted into applause. Susan, and Valarie, and that strange third woman all beating their open palms bloody and cheering for the reborn, reinvigorated me.
“I save your life only in the interest of ensuring that you will continue to take it from others,” she boomed over the vicious clapping, “If all chaos together can not clean the universe of you human scum, then let it be from man’s own selfish hand that death comes, and let it come swift, and righteously unjust”.
The clapping continued to grow in intensity, now joined by approving screams so animalistic anyone that might have overheard would have a hard time saying whether they were the sounds of cheering, or a violent ritual murder.
“Now rise!” she screamed out, and for the first time I noticed she didn’t even have any lips with which to talk, just a smooth grey patch of skin that caught the mind off guard, and kept me well aware that I was in no position to question her demands, not that I ever wanted to anyway.
“Rise up!” she screamed, “Reclaim your place in this world, and embrace the better version of you, unhinged, and free of fear and doubt!”
“Praise her!” Susan, Valarie, and the other woman screamed out.
“Together we will clean the world,” cried the grey woman, “I, the last of the Imperialists, and you, my servant killers of innocent men”.
“Praise her!” the three all cried together again, and I lifted myself from the gurney as my chest was stitched closed with a needle acting on the telekinetic instructions of her otherworldly eyebrows, catching my heart and lungs just before they came pouring out onto the floor in a more primitive sort of offering to my new god.
“Rise anew my soldier of hate,” she whispered, staring a second pair of holes through my head, “Welcome to my genocide, and your little corner of it, and allow me to introduce yourself…”
Her eyebrows reached across the room and snatched the blood covered scalpel from beside my gurney, polished it off and presented me with my brand new reflection in its surface. The strange robotic implant had taken over half of my neck and looked like something out of a deranged toddler’s classroom doodles, but I smiled at the sight of this horrible new me, because I knew how many people wouldn’t smile back if they’d met it.
“Johnny Minacelli,” she said, “I present Mr. Johnny Throatwound”.
[to be continued]
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